30.11.07

I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!

Oh my god... tml there will only be me alone there.. sianz ar!!! ARRGGH!!! Hmm.. sian sia.. i have be nagging this sentence since i saw my timetable.. wahaha.. but.. wad to do.. still cannot do anything to it man.. haix.. how i wish i can rest tml.. can sleep late late.. becoz tml i will have no chance to chat with him for the whole day.. haix.. sianz ar.. miss him so badly.. why he cant come over here just for few days or 2 weeks like that.. feel like hugging him damn badly man.. feel like lying next to him so badly to chat with him and tell him all of my things.. but he is busy.. to me.. i am busy too.. haix.. i am thinking.. why there isn't a break for me to let me have the chance to go back there.. haix.. i miss him.. i really miss him.. i really really miss him damn damn damn badly.. =(

11/30/2007 10:44:00 PM

MISS YOU DAMN DAMN DAMN BADLY!!!

Hmm.. dunno why today specially miss you.. hmm.. is like only few hours nva sms you only.. the heart is so uncomfortable man.. actually wanting to sms you at that point of time de.. but was afraid that cannot see your msg so i just have to tahan until 6+ then can sms you.. but at that time.. u have to study le.. and do not have much things to sms too... so i just sms you to tell you how much i miss you.. hehex.. sometimes things keep inside my heart is so uncomfortable.. so i have to say out.. but when is time for me to say.. i cant say out.. or say.. i am shy to say it out.. hmm.. so i have just to use in sms de.. haix.. so sianz.. so shy shy shy to tell you straight.. oh my god!!!

11/30/2007 12:17:00 AM

27.11.07

SWEET WORDS FROM HIM TODAY(11/27)!!

From 2:30 until 4:25 " Oh my god.. nose block until very xin ku man.. Sianz ar.." "Nose block until afternoon ar?? I think u go and drink some hot drink or ginger tea.. it will be better.." "I drank ginger soup this few days but no use sia.." "Of course la.. u need my tight tight hug only ma.. hehex.." Haha.. ya lor ya lor.. Glad that you know it.. so happy about it.. haha.. Do it in action, dun just keep on saying.. Haha.." "Wah.. if given the choice.. i will do this action everytime liao lor.. hehex.." Haha.. you are given the choice, arent you?" "That's why i chose you!" " You are given the choice and you chose me is there any link to it? Haha.. i dun get it lehx.." "The link is...... I have chosed u as my choice! My choice to stay together with, grow old with n spend my life with!"... haha.. this is wad we chatted in the afternoon.. hehex..

Purple colour is mine and blue colour is HIS!! hehex..

11/27/2007 11:56:00 PM

26.11.07

SURPRISED!!!

Hehex.. yes.. he got the surprised.. i have to keep it in my heart not to tell him about it sia.. haha.. so xin ku.. lucky he nva qi yi xin.. hehex.. so happy about it.. hehex.. Hmm.. today nva teach class sia.. wahahaha.. so relax.. but just that need to help those secondaries and before that is the primaries!! haha.. but quite relaxing for me today actually la..

Front view

Yes.. This is the surprise i am referring to...

Back View

11/26/2007 11:46:00 PM

23.11.07

WILL YOU HATE ME??

Haix.. i was thinking this when i was on my way home today.. i am asking myself.. will he hate me for leaving him so fast as we are just together not long?? Other couples can see each other everyday and meet out together whenever they want.. but not us.. i dunno the answer.. but i hope no.. to say the true i also dun feel like staying here.. but i cant.. i cant run away like that.. i also hope to be by your side whenever i need you.. whenever i miss you.. but what can i do just to be by your side?? Other couples will quarrel with small things.. but we don't.. i also dun like to quarrel with my loved one.. i hate the feeling.. it will make me more sad whenever i quarrelled with my loved one especially my family and HIM.. But i also hate the feeling that whenever i feel depressed and need his shoulder badly.. i cant have it as he is too far away from me.. i want a tight tight tight tight hug from him very badly nowadays.. but i cant have it.. i wish to run away from here.. i wish to have him to be by my side forever.. i wish to have a tight tight tight hug from him now.. but all cant come true now.. haix..

11/23/2007 10:16:00 PM

22.11.07

ALL OF A SUDDEN!!

Oh my god.. just that moment.. i dunno wad will happen to me.. i rode very carefully already.. but just at that moment.. there is a motorbike stopped suddenly and i cant stopped and knock to it.. lucky it is a girl who rode the bike.. if a guy rode it.. i think he will start scolding all the bad words out from his mouth.. but all the fault is becoz of a car.. it nva signal us that it is turning right and turn right all of a sudden.. oh my god.. i hate it.. i hate this kind of person.. now my left hand quite pain as the whole weight of my bike fell to the left and i have to use my left hand to support it.. and i think i have injured my feet too.. haix.. thought that i can told him straight away when i am back home.. but who knows that he had to go out and help his father.. haix.. sian ar...

11/22/2007 10:53:00 PM

MR&MRS ****!!!

Hmm.. will this be my adress next time round?? hehex.. i am not sure about it.. but i hope it will happen soon soon soon.. hehex.. underdstand?? hehex..

11/22/2007 12:13:00 AM

20.11.07

CAN YOU JUST SHUT YOUR MOUTH UP?? I DONT WANT TO HEAR YOUR VOICE!!

How i wish i can speak it out loud to someone out there.. How i wish i am a deaf person towards some people.. so that i can stop hearing them nagging or talking to me .. How i wish i have the money now and leave this place soon.. How i wish someone will rescue out from here.. How i wish i have a gut to speak out whatever is in my heart.. How i wish how i wish how i wish!! haix.. but those are just wishes.. is quite impossible to come true.. i dunno why.. today morning i had a bad mood towards my family.. i nva even mention anything to them and i just left my house to attend a course.. i know it is really a bad thing to do but i just dunno wad to do.. just now after my work, when i was riding home, all the bad things came out from my mind.. I was thinking that.. what will happen if i close my eyes while i was riding home?? what will hapen if i speed all the way home from my workplace?? what will happen if i nva stop the break when there is a red traffic light?? what will happen to me if all this things happen?? haix..

11/20/2007 11:08:00 PM

19.11.07

AIYA, DUNNO LA, FEEL SO IRRIATED NOW!!!

Haix.. another phrase i also say to him when i am feeling depress.. i think my dear dear have been hearing this few phrases when i am chatting with him nowadays.. i am so sorry about it and really feel very sorry to him.. his ears nva stop hearing all of my naggings since i started working and started to get more and more stress over the work!!! sian ar.. wad should i do?? i am really very confusing.. i really hope to leave this place as soon as possible.. i really hope to leave here.. but i cant.. they will hate me if i do that.. but i really cannot continue anymore.. i am afraid i will do silly thing 1 day.. but i promise my dear that i cant do it.. but i really dunno wad to do.. haix.. sianz ar.. if during the past time, i think i will say.. " i really hope to leave this world as soon as possible.." but now i will not say this.. becoz i know i have a future waiting for me.. haix.. sianz sianz sianz.. life is so unreasonable!!! SIANZ!!!

11/19/2007 01:48:00 PM

18.11.07

AIYA, DUNNO LA, FORGET ABOUT IT LA!!

Haix.. this is wad i always say to him when i dunno wad am i going to say.. i know it is bad but wad should i say sometimes.. i dunno.. i feel very confuse.. i dunno wad to do.. i dunno how to tell my parent about it.. i am afraid that they will be angry with me. i really very very afraid about it.. if i tell them that i feel like going back to singapore to work or stay or further my study, i am afraid that they will be angry about me.. What am i suppose to fo?? what should i do?? i really dunno.. I FEEL LIKE GOING BACK.. I REALLY FEEL IT VERY BADLY!!!

11/18/2007 09:59:00 PM

16.11.07

Today's blog is dedicated to yuxuan dear dear!!!!!

Yeah.. i promise to write a blog that belongs to my yuxuan dear dear de and yes i did it.. wahahaha... so cannot say i zhong se qing you le ar!!! hehex.. hmm.. yesterday chatted with my dear dear even though i nva heard quite alot of things from her but i will wait for her letter de.. i know in the letter there will be lots and lots of things to tell me de.. so waiting for your letter wor.. hehex.. dun make me feel disappointed when i received it wor.. hehex.. hmm.. to tell the truth i also really feel like going back to singapore and stay and find a job lor.. but now the problem lies to my parents.. haix.. it is them that make me really confusing de.. not only them.. if i want to go back to singapore.. i think there will be 1 more nagging and that is my sister.. she will be another road block for me.. i hate her to give comments.. i hate to hear it.. i have been away from my family for almost 14 years le.. when i need them the most.. there are not beside me.. but when i have grow up and wanted to be alone le.. then i have to stay by their side.. i dunno why like that.. i really feel very confuse.. i miss my secondary friends.. i miss my yuxuan dear dear.. i miss my dearest baobei darling.. i miss all of you all in singapore!!!

11/16/2007 09:57:00 PM

8.11.07

HAPPY 4 MONTHS!!!

Hehex... time really pass very fast.. we have known each other for 124 days already.. hehex.. quite happy to know him.. i think this is a GREAT present for my belated birthday present of 2007!! hehex.. i will remember it by heart de.. hehex.. Dear dear!! I LOVE YA!!! MUACKZZZ!!!

11/08/2007 11:26:00 PM

6.11.07

I WANT HOLIDAY!!!!

ARRGGHHHH!!!! I REALLY DUNNO WAD TO DO ABOUT IT LE.. I GIVE UP MY TIME TO HELP THEM TO IMPROVE THEIR SCHOOL'S ENGLISH!! YET THEY JUST GIVE ME THE STUPID FACE.. TODAY I REALLY HAVE NO MOOD TO TEACH THEM!!! I REALLY DUNNO WAD TO TEACH WHEN THEY GIVE ME THE STUPID FACE!!! I REALLY REALLY REALLY DUNNO WAD TO DO LE!!! ARRGGHHH!!! HAVE TO TAHAN THEM.. CANNOT SCOLD THEM.. CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO THEM!! THEN WAD CAN I DO?? KNOCK MYSELF ON THE WALL?? OR USE OTHER SHARP THINGS TO HURT MYSELF?? WAD CAN I DO?? WAD SHOULD I DO?? I DUN EVEN KNOW HOW TO TELL MY DAD OR MOTHER ABOUT IT.. I REALLY HOPE TO FIND OTHER JOB TO DO.. I DUN FEEL LIKE DOING THIS ANYMORE!!! ARRGGHHHH!!!! PLEASE COME AND SAVE ME.. ANYONE WILL DO!!!!!

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