Hmm.. i dunno i dunno i really dunno.. what's wrong with me?? is nt that he dunwan to come.. just that he gt smth that make him cannot come!! ARRGGHH!! I DUNNO LA.. REALLY DUNNO LA.. JUST FEELING SAD!! JUST FEEL LIKE CRYING WHENEVER I THINK OF THIS!! REALLY PRAY HARD FOR HIS GRANDMA!! HOPE SHE CAN GET WELL SOON!!
10/24/2008 11:05:00 PM
23.10.08
STOP!!
EVERYTHING IS GOING TO STOP!! I AM NT GOING TO COUNT DOWN ANYMORE!! NO USE COUNTING DOWN!! NO USE LE!! I AM GOING TO STOP PLANNING THE TRIPS TO TP!! IT IS NT GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME ANYMORE!! NO MORE!! EVERYTHING IS NT GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME END OF THIS YEAR!!
10/23/2008 09:35:00 PM
22.10.08
DEPRESSED!!
Haix.. i dunno why.. i know it is wrong to do that.. it is really a mistake.. actually i am quite happy when i know he is going to take leave.. start planning for trip le but he told me that his grandma's condition is getting worst.. haix.. dunno dunno dunno!! feeling sad now!! i know i cant be so selfish.. i know i cant.. haix.. i dunno wad to do!! WHO CAN TELL ME??
10/22/2008 11:00:00 PM
14.10.08
I HATE YOU!!
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!! I JUST HATE YOU ALOT!! I JUST HATE YOU VERY MUCH!! CAN YOU DUN BE SO PETTY?? CANT YOU JUST OPEN YOUR HEART AND ACCEPT IT?? CAN YOU JUST GIVE IN ABIT TO HIM?? I KNOW IT IS HARD FOR YOU WHILE YOU ARE STAYING SO FAR FROM HIM!! YOU HAVE ALREADY STEP THRU FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS BEFORE YOU ARE BACK IN SINGAPORE!! BUT WHY DO YOU CHANGE AFTER YOU ARE BACK IN TW?? I KNOW YOU MISS HIM ALOT!! I KNOW IT I KNOW IT I KNOW IT!! BUT TIME PASS FAST!! HE WILL BE COMING TO MEET YOU SOON!! YOU ARE ABLE TO SEE HIM SOON!! CANT YOU JUST WAIT?? I HATE YOU I ATE YOU I HATE YOU!! I DUN LOVE YOU ANYMORE!! YOU ARE JUST A CRYBABY!! GET LOST FROM MY SIGHT!! I DUNWAN TO SEE YOU AGAIN!! ARRGGHH!!
10/14/2008 11:30:00 PM
8.10.08
HAPPY 15 MONTHS!!
Hmm.. this few days i dun even know wad happen to me.. mood is really SUCKS like hell!! Attitude is also SUCKS like hell!! SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!! I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!! I HATE THE WAY I TREAT HIM THIS FEW DAYS.. I KNOW IT HURTS HIM.. BUT IT ALSO HURTS ME!! I JUST HATE MYSELF FOR DOING ALL THIS.. I DUN REALLY LIKE MYSELF BEING LIKE THIS.. I HATE MY MYSELF I HATE MYSELF!! I JUST HATE MYSELF!! I DUN LIKE MYSELF THIS FEW DAYS!! I AM UNHAPPY!! REALLY VERY UNHAPPY!! REALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING!! HOW HOW HOW? NOONE CAN SHARE MY PROBLEMS WITH ME!! WHERE ARE YOU MY FRIENDS?? I REALLY NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO VERY BADLY!! WHO CAN SHARE MY RPOBLEMS WITH ME?? THE ONE I NEED TO TALK TO NOW IS ALSO HAVING PROBLEM HIMSELF!! I DUN EVEN DARE TO DISTURB HIM!! ARRGGHH!!
